TIm Sims.

On my journey of self actualization, I've hit a major bump in the road. How genuine are we as a whole? How much do I practice what I preach? Has my talk of spreading love and positivity all been a lame attempt to cover my flaws and portray a peace loving existencialist? Well, maybe it's not so simple. If I could divide myself up into parts, there would be an infinite amount. Within those parts are even more parts, etc. etc. When it comes to human emotion I believe no feeling is simple enough to define with words. Which is why emotions exist in the first place. I've become frustrated though, trying to decipher how I feel using words. It just doesn't work for me. If I could somehow use interpretive dance in my every day life, that would be swell. But, assuming I can't...now what? Am I left with those same mundane vocabulary words that have become so meaningless over time? It's just not enough. I need a new way to express myself beyond my complaining,internal meditation and incessant doodling. Until I figure it out, I fear I will live in a world shadowed by doubt and confusion...or is this something we can never fully grasp? Am I trying to reach beyond my frame of reference and express myself in ways that are not accessible in this dimension? Yes, I've set myself up for a entry about 2012, but I won't fall into it's trap..this time.